Today is Wes and my five month wedding anniversary... the day was kinda boring.  We had dinner at home and played cards.  I did a lot of crying today.  Wes and I were going through the closet and he opened a box to see what was in it... It was our babies' memory box of stuff we bought for the baby before the miscarriages...  I was crying all damn day.  Then I tried to join  a support group this afternoon for Miscarriages...  I got a response back that unless I had a death certificate, or had a funeral for the baby that I wasn't far enough along in my pregnancy to join the group.  The group was listed as a miscarriage support group... what the hell?  Just becasue I was only 3 months along and couldn't afford a funeral. was too in shock to think about it also... doesn't mean that I am not grieving as much as other Mothers who miscarried later in their pregnancies.  So I wrote back and told her that I didn't want to be a part of a support group that doesn't care about women who have miscarried in early pregnancy anyway.  She was such a bitch.  I think I hate her. 

So I was sad and crying all day.  Wes was great though, he helped me through everything and made me realize that he loves me no matter what. 

Wow, what an anniversary!    I ruin everything....!!